"I wish

1. Personally to be eternally the perfect expression of the Supreme Divine.
2. That the supramental victory, manifestation and transformation should take place at once.
3. That all suffering should disappear for ever from the worlds present and future."



 

Q: When the Supreme Lord told you to make the world, how did you know what had to be done?

Mother's answer:

I had nothing to learn for that, because the Supreme Lord contains everything in Himself: the whole world and the power to make it. When He decided that there should be a world, He first brought forth the knowledge of the world and the power to make it and that is me, and then he commanded me to make the world.



 

 

Mother's upbringing and childhood:

(Taken from a letter written in 1934).

You see, my child, the unfortunate thing is that you are too busy with yourself. At your age I was exclusively occupied with my studies - informing myself, learning, understanding, knowing. That was my interest, even my passion. My mother, who loved us - my brother and myself - very much, never allowed us to be bad tempered or dissatisfied or lazy. If we went and complained to her about something or other and told her that we were not satisfied, she would laugh at us and scold us and say to us, "What is this foolishness? Don't be ridiculous, off you go and work, and don't take any notice of your good or bad moods! That is not interesting at all."

My mother was perfectly right and I have always been very grateful to her for having taught me discipline and the necessity of self-forgetfulness in concentration on what one is doing.

I have told you this because the anxiety you speak of comes from the fact that you are far too busy with yourself. It would be far better for you to attend more to what you are doing (painting or music), to develop your mind which is still very uncultivated and to learn the elements of knowledge which are indispensable to a man if he does not want to be ignored or uncultured.

 

All this happened between the age of three and seven...I was serious! I remember when I was being dressed to go and have my photograph taken. The dress was arranged, the hat, and I was told how to pose for the photo. I would look at the older people and tell myself, "But how childish all this is!"

I remember the first time I heard my mother tell a lie! Oh, it was indeed a let down! "Say that I am not here." It was ridiculous, I couldn't understand, for she was there!

They had never explained to me what a lie was but the psychic was there, and that knew. Once...there was a small wall-cupboard, very small, where medicines were kept, and one day my brother told me, "Climb up on the stool and take a packet." It was a packet containing marshmallows or something like that I was very docile. I used to do everything my brother asked me. So I climbed up on the stool and took the packet." When I gave it to him he told me, "You won't say anything, you mustn't say anything." I looked at him and I felt here (Mother points at her heart), I felt a terrible uneasiness. I said nothing, but for years I felt that uneasiness, and I used to tell myself, "This must be it - falsehood!"

 



Constant rememberance of the Mother

This is Aditi, the mother of the Gods, deep in the heart of things she has entered, there she is seated. This is that thou seekest.

(Katha Upanishad)

 

Sri Aurobindo writes:

It is by constant rememberance that the being is prepared for the full opening. By the opening of the heart the Mother's presence begins to be felt and, by the opening to her Power above, the Force of the higher consciousness comes down into the body and works there to change the whole nature.

There is within you a psychic being which is divine, directly a part of the Mother, pure of all defects. It is covered and concealed by the ordinary consciousness and nature, but when it is unveiled and able to come forward and govern the being, then it changes the ordinary consciousness, throws all these undivine things out and changes the outer nature altogether. That is why we want the sadhaks to concentrate, to open this concealed consciousness - it is by concentration of whatever kind and the experiences it brings that one opens and becomes aware within and the new consciousness and nature begin to grow and come out.

The sadhana of inner concentration consists in:

1. Fixing the consciousness in the heart and concentrating there on the idea, image or name of the Divine Mother, whichever comes easiest to you.
2. A gradual and progressing quieting of the mind by this concentration in the heart.